Dull days...

What is happening?

No energy, no creativity!

Not anything worth

coming out...!

Drowsiness all through!

When will sleep be

enough for me?

Old friendship are

sprouting anew...

Some have almost 

faded out...

Some are still 

on the wait...

New friendships too

are not that scarce!

Even after thirty plus years

in ministry 

am still struggling with

my little faith!

Not quite ready to

give up for anything!

Going strong in my

convictions day after day.

There is fire very much

within...

That is not glowing

well enough...

Let me at least keep

that fire burning...

The Hiding beauty…

The Hiding beauty…

Wonder did I

Asking myself

 Why at all people hide behind!

Only then I realized that

There could be a corollary to this:

Someone might be

Watching, rather

Observing someone!

Yes, you stole my admiration

Hiding behind!

When I could see

Everyone in the congregation,

Rather everyone one was

Beholding at the ‘celebrant’

You alone were ‘hiding’ behind!

Yes, that forced my admiration!

Was it unbecoming of a ‘celebrant’?

Who cares, but

Would love to consider that

A matter of admiration of beauty,

Enhanced by the ‘hiding,’

Rather shall I say ‘shying’!

Is not Divinity

‘Satyam’, ‘Sivam’, ‘Sundaram’?

You were bestowed aplenty

With the last of the divine shade!

Your shying smile

Literally captivated me!

Was adoring the beauty from afar!

Seeing that not in the congregation

Left me ‘troubled’ indeed!

It is only a tribute to Beauty,

Both outward and inward equally.

Keep it up knowing that

It is a shadow of divinity real.

To ......., the hiding beauty…

Osama bin Laden...

Almost ten years to trace and less than ten hours to terminate and what next... is the question many wonder. Yes, the man personifying the American/ Western/ Jewish-Christian enemity is done with! His body was said to have been hurriedly buried in the deep! May be true, and may not be true too. It could be a fake burriel also after keeping his body/ brain for further study and research because such a person could not that way be annihilated. Future generations need to take lessons from his life, person and brain...

He was daring the numero uno for a 'cause'! The cause may be right or wrong, but he did that and proved the extent to which a person could go, if one is determined. Determination is what matters. Determined people will achieve much more, whether for good or bad.

Bad or negative determination will end up one day and that too so disasterously...

My wish is that if there were people with such determination for good, positive and creative purposes - for the well being of humanity and the universe at large!

Let us ensure equality, fraternity and justice leading upto that great peace - 'Shalom', 'Shanthi' or even 'Islam"! May there be PEACE...

Two letters...

Sixteenth and twenty first February two thousand and eleven. People become angry and loose all senses... Or else somekind of jealousy and go the way of ruin... All the more so the Eve's lot...

How people look at...

Dear Fr.Pancratius,

Sorry for the delay.And thanks for the prompt answer to my request that you sent me the matter at once.

To be frank I already knew what sort of letter would be yours to the Bishop as a result of my little bit of knowing you.So it was not a surprise though.

What I gather from your personality is this : That you are not afraid of saying a spade a spade because you do not need any thing from them.Neither you are not afraid of losing anything.Because you do not hold any thing.No positions nor things,or name or fame.

This I have got to know from what I know of you as well a few people who have known you have communicated to me.I feel proud of you.all what I want to say to you is"Please keep up to this attitude, this conviction, this stand of yours.You are a role model."Thanks for being a very good priest in this corrupt age.Nice having you as our dear neighbour. With full of laughter and always caring for the poor and down trodden and the lowly.

Affectionatly

Sr. Ancilla

Democracy in a Law College and Fairness in a University...

Democracy in a Law College!
These are the days of Election to the College Union. Students, especially the younger ones in the day batch are so spirited in the process and they were campaigning so vehemently among their evening batch seniors, not necessarily in the academic aspect but in age. They stand all the way from the entrance to the doors at our class rooms and stop everyone to solicit votes for themselves and their candidates.

Then they take out processions shouting slogans to the extent that none could engage any class. When one of the parties comes to a particular class, the others invariably see that the ones in the class don’t utter a word! Even when someone try to close the doors to ensure hearing, the ones outside bang the windows and doors so violently and the make the situation so volatile!
To add to this undemocratic ways are the so called ‘seniors’ who are seemingly so fanatic and they blindly support their brand of parties. The college authorities have to follow them to avoid any unnecessary confrontation among various parties! Teachers were almost helpless as none seem to be morally strong to say no to such unruly behavior! These are the ones to be the guardians of justice as lawyers and to end up as legislators one day or other!

Also fair play, a laughing stock in the campus!
Internals like the attendance, seminar, assignment and test papers are only farce as for as many are concerned. Test paper is an open mal-practice and none seem to worry about!
The staffs are not disciplined and don’t come prepared and so they initiate the value deterioration! Time table is never followed, nor do many of them come in time! Announcements never are given in time and in order.

Some teachers maintain their authority not on the basis of their erudition and scholarliness, but through their clout with the internal marks.

Library is worse than a recreation hall as there is only noise all over!

Need not say anything about the cleanliness of the class rooms! Stray dogs all around as it is the case in the roads and other public places like the beach and so on.

The University:
If the college is hopeless, the university seems to be worse. When we apply for scrutiny and revaluation, they show the papers first and demand us to sign without making any remark at all! After this, the result is announced as there is no change in marks! How come that happen, two people valuing a same answer in the very same way as if it was some kind of weighing! Our signing itself could create some kind of prejudice.

Besides this I doubt whether the previous marks will be deleted/ cleared to make the second valuation free and fair! If not, how can the second one not being prejudiced?
The syllabus and available books are practically none!

Nuptial Mass in Advent!

Loving greetings! Hope and pray that this letter finds you fine. Quite often you have seemingly treated me as an irritant! However, certain things I can’t but tell you for the betterment of the archdiocese, of course to my knowledge.

You are aware of the plight of Gladin in our parish! He was not even allowed to concelebrate the nuptial Mass of his own nephew, let alone the blessing of the marriage. He is not welcome there either! You know the incident behind that! The question of nuptial Mass in Advent!

Just today I went for a marriage in one of our parishes. I reached while the Gospel was being proclamed and remained there till the end. The Mass was concelebrated by five priests – two from our archdiocese, two from one of our neighbouring dioceses and one from a religious congregation! It was in no way different than the Masses of other days, though it is advent and that too after 17th.

I think that it is not the case with our neighbouring Kottar or the neighbouring Verapoly Province! To my understanding Trivandrum province alone is advocating it and that too for the poor and the weak! The mighty doesn’t care at all! That is the message, loud and clear, emanating from the marriage I referred above!

Though I can’t still understand the theology behind not offering Mass, I am here not to advocate for the repeal of any law decreed by you! However, I do question the inequality being meted out to the poor in our archdiocese! Equality before law is the basic right of anyone in this country and I don’t think that it is different in the church!

Laws may be violated, but not so blatantly as here in our archdiocese and that too with the knowledge and support of priests! The violators are violators and they should be treated so. Do we have a system of enforcing laws and booking the offenders? Do we really consult people concerned other than the ‘yes men,’ before enacting such laws, especially when it is seemingly contrary to what was practiced and provided in guides like the Ecclesiastical Calendar or so?

Let us ensure support of all concerned, and take everyone possible into confidence before enacting such laws so hurriedly and then helplessly witnessing violations!

If you don’t mind, I shall send to such comments as and when situations demand and would love to know your mind.